I feel horrible

I figure if I was gonna boast that I was quitting, that I better post when I failed. After buying a pack of smokes this morning, it took me almost an hour before I actually smoked. First the store didn't have matches, and I really didn't want to purchase a lighter. I also have no intention of picking up this bad habit again either. I just felt so compelled to smoke that I just had to do it. Sorta get it out of my system type thing. Anyone that knows me knows, that if I want something bad enough, I will do anything to get what it is that I want. I had to track someone down that had a lighter, when I returned the lighter, I said, don't let me borrow it again. The bad part now is, I got 19 more cigs that I just paid $3 for. At becomeanex.org it says, do not bum a smoke, make yourself go buy them. I guess thats so it makes it harder for you. I don't believe that, because like I said, now I have 19 more.

Every morning I read a daily devotional HERE and even though I have had this urge to smoke for a while now, and after reading the devotional this morning, I knew what I needed to do, if you read the devotional TODAY you will know what I mean, the link changes everyday so I will post what I am referring too, (what i needed to do).

"Battling alone, we are powerless. The enemy is much too strong. His temptations are overpowering. The living Christ offers to do for us what we could never do for ourselves. He offers us His power, His strength. As we open our hearts to Him He will deliver us from the chains of sin that bind us. In Christ, through Christ, by Christ, with Christ, we are truly set free. He is our almighty Deliverer."

Somehow after reading this I failed to ask Christ for help. Once again, I wanted to sufice this urge and therefore refused to ask for help. I now will ask Christ to help me though this as I can not do this on my own. I only wish I would have asked for help earlier this morning.

For the record, I immediately felt light headed and my hands went numb. Why people smoke beats me.

I ask for all that follow my blog to pray for me as I continue my struggle.

Couldn't Resist

Today the temtation was too great. It's been around 5 weeks since I Quit, and the urge is still as strong now as it was the day after I quit.

My Girl

"It's a wonderful life"

Gangster

he'll gitcha!

Being Bad....

After weeks of hardly having an appetite, now I can't seem to stop eating. Y'all see the Mountain Dew? Guess it's not all bad, it's all I could do not to get a pack of smokes while I was at the store.

BTW: This is the start of Book 2, titled "It's all good"

The END

That's All Folks

8000 Miles

I did turn 8000 miles this past Saturday, went cruisin for the sole purpose of turnin 8k. I rode a little over 250 miles to reach 8K.

Birthday Boy

Capone is two today, took him for two long walks today, guess it wore him out pretty good..

Smokey Mountain

Adding one more thing to the I Quit list, this time it is tobacco. Been smoking or using some sort of tobacco product since I was about 13 years old. So for 23 years I've been hooked. I was doing some research a few weeks ago and found this product while looking for how to quit. So I placed my order and in a few days they came in the mail. Since the first pouch hit my mouth I haven't had any tobacco products since. Is it a cure all? Probably not, but I figure that I really do want to quit this time and that's all you really need. I have tried to quit in the past, but always missed smoking or whatever and would just give in because I wanted to smoke. Anyway this is a nice flavor none tobacco none nicotine pouch, that I am using to help me quit. Whats in it? peppermint, menthol, chocolate, corncoffee, xylitol, and cayenneppepper. There is probably more but that's what they tell you on the can. It's FDA Approved and and is considered a safe product. If my efforts fail or come close, I will rush to the store to get the patches or gum or some other product. But for now, It's going good. I have been walking for several weeks and even ran a little to boost the heart rate and feel good. I look forward to a healthier happier ME !
YAY!



So far this year I have quit the following:

Mountain Dew (Drank for 25+ years)

Tobacco Nicotine (used for 23 years)

Java Chillers (Enjoyed for several months)

Alcohol (Drank for 20 years) Sometimes Socially sometimes on the floor puking.

Philharmonic

A couple weeks ago Misty and myself took in the local symphony and had a great time. The music was simply awesome but we both agreed that the second song of the first set was missing something. Anyway, if u like live music, be sure to check out your local philharmonic, cheap upper balcony seats were only $12.